Tomorrow is the big day folks! I have never really held much focus on age and what a number means and I had no idea that 40 would affect me the way it has.
I am feeling great today and really looking forward to what tomorrow and all the other days will bring, but BOY, was last week ever rough emotionally.
I was so deeply lost trying to figure out what everyones reactions to me actually meant in regards to my life so far and what kind of a friend I may really be to all of them. It may be a Gemini thing, I am not sure, but I was always somewhat like this growing up. If things started to go bad or just looked like they were heading in a downward spiral to me, I would almost want to just give up on everything. After all, what was the point?
It’s a pretty shi**y way to think, but I honestly did. I would have to fight it with all my eternal strength,as there is no way I ever wanted to end up as a manic depressive or have a Doctor try and put me on medications. I had seen this happen to people in my world growing up and was so afraid up being sucked into that quick sand.
I haven’t felt that way is years. So many years that I have no idea how many it has been. Last Wednesday pretty much had me knocked to the ground and shedding a lot of tears. Don’t get me wrong, I know very well that I have a wonderful life and that I am one of the luckiest people around. But Boy oh boy, that was something.
The next morning arrived and I felt so much stronger and eager for all the great adventures and some challenges coming my way. I cannot wait for tomorrow to arrive and I am spending today enjoying the sunshine and finding something sexy and empowering to wear to greet my 40th year tomorrow.
Love to you all! Now go dance in your local grocery shopping aisle to the ‘musak’ of the day! … as that is what I am going to do, since we are out of peanut butter.
keep smiling and creating,
Nicci
Life is too short to be bashful
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Thanks for sharing your raw emotions. That can be hard for a Gemini! Think of this as your new start! Reflection is always worthwhile at any
stage in life! Sounds like you’re walking into your forties with Pizzazz!! Having a few dear and intimate friends is always better than a boat load of fair weather friends! Your birthday WILL be awesome, because you ARE awesome!!
Big hugs Giggles
Love this real life real feeling stuff. When you asked firends to share memories of you on facebook I was going to write that my favorite from this past weekend – simply hearing you share so honestly about stuff going on in your life and how you were feeling. You are a geat person Nicci and I feel thankful to have you as a friend.
Dearest Nicci
There is a message for you on Facebook,I eMailed you, and one in our room:
http://glittersisters.blogspot.com/
Guess you get the message.
You are loved. Honestly being 40 rocks. You still have tons of energy, good looks, and 40 years of wisdom…xxx
Love you
Hey Nicci. I do hope your special day was wonderful. Let me tell you from experience the “40’s” are your best years. You start to not care so much what others think and start to live just for yourself. Think wild abandon. Why not? I wish I were 40 again! Just be yourself and you’ll love it. xoxoxo